it has been a week of high uncertainty for me. I had been suffering from serious anxiety because I do not know if my exchange program will be approved or not. I had to fight against the deadline and this time round, I seriously think it was not entirely my fault that things turned out to be in this way. desperately calling ubc last night, seeking help from jf, running to and fro from fac to fac and from office to office, talking to many different people just to get a peace of mind. worried that if i failed to meet the deadline, everything will be gone just like that. it is just unfair because I know I had done my part to my best ability. it is the others who crippled and destroyed my chance. I will hate myself more if I lose this chance now.
all i need is just assurance. i have been picturing myself there since i accepted the offer. it is just 3 more months and i will be away. i just want someone to tell me that everything is on schedule, nothing will go wrong and i will be sitting happily in the plane soon, waiting to explore a new country. dont spolit this beautiful picture that i have painted in my mind.
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